~~~~~~~~~ "We are here for only a moment, wanderers and sojourners in the land as our ancestors were before us. Our days on earth are like a passing shadow, gone so soon without a trace." I Chron. 29:15 NLT

Thursday, November 27, 2008

Hope and Prayer Equals Joy

I don't want to be a complainer, but I keep praying I'll get over the daily fatigue that's a result of pain and medication to give me more energy and time to blog. I'm trying to get our house cleaned up of clutter from the past eight years we've lived here. I was so ill when we moved and had to stop working which has been a huge adjustment. I"m doing better, but I got so far behind in homekeeping. I'm not sure I've completely adjusted to this life that is considerably different than what I had planned it would be. I keep trying to do the things I used to do, especially at holidays, and I've got to accept I can't do it all anymore.

I finally hired someone to help me get rid of stuff. It was too overwhelming and daunting a task to do alone. Hubby offered to help and would have been delighted to just chuck everything in one fell swoop because he doesn't have the patience to sit by while I consider what I want to keep and what needs to go. Therefore, having a Christian woman to share the task, who apparently enjoys helping weaklings like me, will save a lot of frustration and perhaps our marriage!

Oh, the anticipation of having our home cleansed of the stuff and nonsense that's no longer useful. It will feel like a heavy burden has been lifted. In some ways it is difficult because some of the things that need to go are objects associated with dreams that will never be fulfilled. But it's time to let them go so that without distraction God can begin to do a different good work in me.

I'm thankful for the journey God has given me. It hasn't always been pleasant. In fact it's been frustrating and quite ugly at times. Yet, what I've learned is that God is full of love and compassion toward us. He sacrificed his only Son, Jesus to suffer for and with us and to be our Savior friend. He has "turned mourning into joy, and will comfort and give joy for sorrow." (Jer. 31:13) This joy that I have isn't always apparent to others, but God and I know it's there.


Betty said...

I´m glad you found someone to help you.
I need to go through my cupboards and closets too, but it´s something I dread as well. I always wait too long.....

Donna's Book Nook said...

I don't have the physical burden that you do; however, I have a son who causes me much heartache.(you can read about it on my latest blog.)
I think sometimes God allows us these burdens to keep us focused on Him.
I applaud you for getting your house clean and organized--I'm almost a little envious. Mine seems overwhelming right now. Donna

Blue-eyed Blonde said...

Seems like it used to be so much easier. Never tho't I'd lose my drive to keep house as well as I always did.

Gina said...

I went through a difficult illness a little over a year ago and now I have to make myself do the things that I use to love to do, like cleaning and decorating and preparing for the holidays. The one thing I know is that the Lord will give you the strength to face each day and the ability to do only what He wants you to do. Remember that you have to take care of yourself first, before you can take care of others. It is great that you have someone to help you accomplish what you need. I'll be praying for you.

Blue-eyed Blonde said...

Thanks, Donna, for reminding me that often we go through our experiences to keep us focused on God. How true.

Gina, thanks for your encouragement and prayers.